Unclutterer.com blogs about Zwaggle – interesting

One of my favorite sites – Unclutterer.com talks about Zwaggle.com, which is supposedly a Craigslist for baby products:

“Do you need a stroller? Are you looking to get rid of that changing table? You may want to check out Zwaggle – online community for parents…

anniversary

It’s exactly a year since I’ve made a decision on ttc-ing on my own…Last Thanks.giving I spent browsing I-net, and every page I opened, every blog I came across that day was either about babies or ttc-ing or s.ingle moms. Never happenned before, so I took it as a sign from The Above:-)

As such, it’s exactly a year since I came across n.w’s chatroom, and it was an amazing cyberspace full of intelligent, bright, helpful and kind gals. Thanks!!!

2 weeks later, I had my first RE appointment in Y.ale, and it turned out that, despite my eternal concerns in that area:-), nothing was wrong with me, aside from several polly.ps! Thanks!

- As a result, in February, I had a surgery to remove those pollyps, and got rid of my mid-cycle bleedings. Much Thanks!  

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

Life beyond IV.F (reconnecting with my past)

I spend days trying to recall what was my life about before Oct 15, 2006, whenI dived wholeheartedly in tt.c

2 quick thoughts:

Firstly – I’m fascinated by the world of Big Finance, and here is an amazing piece from N.ew York.er on one of the brightest people on The S.treet. 

http://www.newyorker.com/reporting/2007/10/15/071015fa_fact_cassidy

Secondly, I used to go every day to gym , and my most happy memories of New York include an early Saturday morning Pilate.s class with Lau.ra…I googled her and here is her myspace page, and – as usual – great music…check it out!

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=121092913

nope, bfn.

I had not anticipated it would be so hard to take it. Having the kid was the only thought that brought me through these years. Well, I’m not the first one, not the last one to get it, so guess I’ll survive. I just need to put myself together.

print out from TC.M clinic

My friend gave me a print out from TCM clinic on all this fe.rtili.ty/preg,,nancy related diets. So, please e-mail me firefly1818 at gmail dot com if you’d like me to forward it.

In other news, I have insane night sweats and kinda spotting. well, beta is on Monday, so will see then.

This is a link to ridciulously cute hats.

http://snapdragonsbaby.com/jamie_rae_hats_baby_cappelli.html

6dpd3

Hmm, errrr, as soon as I typed – “no symptoms whatsoever”, I got back a metallic taste in my mouth:-)  and I have some red white head pimples all over my chest, and stuffy nose.  But I hear you girls – it’s too early to sweat.  

On the i.vf front, I have l.uteal blood tests tomorrow and on saturday and then b.eta on Monday.

Major point of relief here – CP.A is totally passable  – not that I think I passed it this time. There was ONLY 1 topic which I never bothered to open – consolidations ’cause I reasoned there’s a low probablity that I’ll get it for simulations (10 points of the entire exam)…Just 1 topic out of a hundred. Well, obviously the probability is 1 in case you are firefly1818, so I got it. Now – what’s the probability that I get it AGAIN in the next test window?:-) I’m not opening it for the life of me! 

Anyway, next exam to screw is Taxe.s and Regulation.s which I thoroughly enjoy. Yup, I’m a perv.ert, I know, just gimme more corpora.te tax.es.

Speaking of tax.es – I researched my first RE in Yal.e exactly on October 15 last year (while preparing my taxes.) Yes, I’m a GREAT procrastinator, and I luv deadlines – they keep me excited. Then during last Thanksgiving, I came across NW, and the first blog I started to read  was Amy’s de.fy grav.ity. Well, and it just has so happenned that I had my ER EXACTLY a year after her IU.I…How funny is that?:-)  Anyway, a year later I think I’m already having troubles keeping conversations outside of tww/childmaking and CPA:-) I should at least start reading something. May be my former favorite blog-

 gofugyourself.typepad.com

Its archive entries are absolutely hyserical…

5dp3d

I think this cycle won’t work – all my symptoms are gone, I’m not tired anymore and feel some very distinct and familiar major AF cramps. I think my embies gave up:-(

Just one tiny, possible possitive sign – I almost passed out yesterday going through the cheese section of the supermarket- it stinks so much!!! and usually I LOVE cheese! The smellier the better! and I have some tiny red bumps on my breasts – usually they are on my chest pre-period. But most likely PIO. 

They had transferred 2 by 9 cells. one 8 cell was left to be watched for freezing.

As a result, I got all stressed out, and forgot to reschedule my CPA. So, will have to go today at 5:30 pm entirely unprepared. and now I need to run back from NYC to CT because I don;t have NTS on me. oh well. 

stuff I’m thinking about

Just wanted to link around

1. There is a decent collection of real Scandi.navian jewlery (all in $10-15 range) on e.Bay, the seller is inkarin. Given that I’m post-IVF broke, I can’t buy it but hope at least someone can enjoy. Good hand-made designer stuff…  

2. Found a great book – Obstet.rics and Gynec.ology in Chi.nese Medicine by Giov.anni Macio.cia…It cost $170 on amazon, but you can read it for free on google;s books…I have a Chinese friend at work, whose entire family is crazed on TC.M. Her mom visits her twice a year with 5 huge bags full of herbals, make her every day massage, special baths, and spent half a day preparing some special nutritional food every day. Well, my friend just had a healthy baby girl in September – and she did not have nauscea, bloating, swelling – nothing ’cause mom was taking such a good care of her. Well, to make things short – ’cause I can barely keep my eyes open:-), that book contains  at least some of the information that my friend told me, like black chicken, etc.  

 3. Last lecture… it’s very sweet but I cried my eyes out. But it’s really worth reading.

http://randompensees.mu.nu/archives/241180.php

day 3

While I basically had an anxiety attack with a catheter inside:-) ( I had to ask to transfer less embies than THEY had originally planned but more than I had originally planned!) but still I did it! 

It’s so weird – when I layed on the table, all I could think about was my main doctor (who suggested # of embies)  - and my angry (!?) thoughts were – “Gosh, this man REALLY decided to get me pregnant!”… Duh!:-)) Can you imagine? I blame it for temporary hormonal insanity. And later when I stayed there for half an hour afterwards, all I could think about was how RIGHT it all seems, even despite all this high-tech:-)

well, now,  my bre.asts are ridiculously tender, and all I can think about these days is …s.e;x., plus I have insomnia but when I do sleep I have the weirdest dreams (where people suicide, i.e. hang themselves in bizzare dresses – kind of the one Keir.a Knitley? weared in P.irates of carribbe.an, when dead ones on the ship got her jumping at night upside down:-) ]  but guess it’s a side effect of progester.one. No cramps, no bloating, I’m 4 lbs down, and making mental notes for raising money for next try. 

So, on this note, I actually went to see recru.iters yesterday, and got commented by partners (behind my back) that I’m “wicked smart”:-)) and as a result, they came back suggesting me some crap in the quants–uber-deriva.tives-he.dge- funds. And how can I explain them that no brains can save me as I can’t concentrate for more than 40 minutes:-( There was an interesting combination of partners in the recr. firm – very warm smiley girl (former PW.C) and terribly intimmidating guy, with a very unpleasant energetics – you know I can’t even look in his eyes.

I think I skipped my regular C.P,A category – well, no major progress here. But I honestly did read about defer.ed ta.x liability (hi meg -how is life?;-).

I have to confess, and I’m dying from embarrassment here:-) – I got a driv.ing li.cense a week ago. Well, I never needed it – in mosc.ow and n..y.c, I used subw.ay, and in cop.enha.gen and hambur.g – tram.s and bycicles (not just me, everybody did:-).) Actually, the main reason is that my mom never allowed me to get it – my first cousin lost his leg upto his knee in some accident…But I think she finally got reconcilied with the idea that you can’t live here without a car…

uncertainty

To be perfectly honest with you, I’m quite scared. Well, not exactly, may be closer to confused.

they only retrieved 7 foll. yesterday partially ’cause my fib.roid. conveniently resides on top of the right ova.ry, where most (bigger) eggs were.  From another point of view, they were monitoring 7-10, and given my real low stims, guess it’s alright. my fsh initially was 4.8, so I’m old but not that ancient.

Just got a call from the nurse : of the 7,  5 were mature and 4 (four!) got fertilized with ic.s.i God bless the embryo lab and many thanks to the iri.sh dude – he obviously rules! I”m slightly perplexed about Russia.n/I.rish combination but I’ll worry about it later. well, given my modest crop, I’m scheduled for day 3, which is on thursday @ 2pm.  

On a shitty side, I got a flu, with 100.2 ish for the second morning and much higher in the afternoon, (which I don;t check ’cause – why to worry?), and I can;t walk/sit. Well, last week was completely crazy, so I had anticipated I’d pay for it, and I’m always sick after surgeries. If this continues, I think I’ll ask them to freeze – it was the last thought I had yesterday before I felt asleep under anesthesia. The first 2 months are THE MOST important in pregnancy, and I don’t want kids to pay for it.  I don;t want to think about the negative side of the freez. process – and I do know what could happen. I think I’ll go with my gut feeling, and I still will get prepared for day 3. 

You know what, I think I’m kinda relieved.